late night thought

I should stop being down if someone told me crappy shit regarding anything, I don't know why I easily get dragged into this, even from some random person I meet, if he alters my mood, I get so depressed and stressed the rest of the day. I wish I could know how to handle this. I'm already stuck here, and it's already a pain in the ass, so I have to tolerate with minor "pain in the ass" issues, there is nothing worth all this worries and sadness!!

my sinews bitching on me

I've been going to the gym lately, I've done that quite before, but since my graduation I just went occasionally and irregularly. after 5 times I might say that the will is forcing me to go, but still I have a lot of work to do. My muscles seems to be very week, and it's like striving with the weights. My food pattern is still blown up. I don't eat healthy and I eat mostly out, but my willpower is just letting me do it! I should just do it! just one of my dear friends told me! I'm week but I will be strong enough I need to move that huge stone inside of me!

The self needs you!

Life is just a set of longing and objectives, and it keeps on coming. Many have realised that after so many years they never lived, got dragged into work, kids, family, bills, etc.. and never gave a chance for the self to live for what pleases it, They never gave a chance for God's voice to be heard. The so called "responsibilities" kept on coming and coming, and with more "work" to do, there is no chance to be with yourself. You get more worried about the future, as tension prolongs, your body starts to tire up, High Blood pressure, Diabetes, arthritis, etc.. Making it more worse with all the worries and responsibilities, the BURDEN of health joins the long list of burdens you carry throughout your "important" tasks you're longing for. Your daily tasks turn into boring repetitive routine, your aim of life becomes lost in this HUGE circle of obligations which became part of your life. And the self becomes more like a heart pumping and a breath exhaling and inhaling. The self lost it's integrity. It becomes part of our material world which can be sold to the highest bidder ( we call it salary or wage or whatever) " Time is money" as they say, but for sure you can get money from your time, but cannot buy your time back with this money..

Lets give a chance for God to arrange our duties, lets give a chance for the self to enjoy life. Throw this huge backpack stashed with all this worthless stuff and be free for a moment of truth.

Drugs consumption in the Middle east

I just came through this article today in CNN news, which discuses drug consumption in the Middle east. And what really surprised me was the huge consumption of Amphetamines in Saudi Arabia

"The World Drug Report 2010, published by the UNODC, shows Saudi authorities confiscated 12.8 metric tons of amphetamine in 2008. A total of 24.3 metric tons of amphetamine were seized worldwide that year, with 15.3 metric tons seized in the wider Middle East."

I Know there is a drug problem here in Saudi Arabia, and due to my position as a Pharmacist, I can tell. There is a lot of OTC meds and cough syrups which been abused by workers (foreigners and Saudis as well) Meds containing "codeine" like "solpadeine" and "fevadol plus" are the most common. Dextromethorpan tabs and syrups. H1 anti histamines, etc.. All can be easily available from pharmacies, and of course it all depends on the pharmacist evaluation, whether that person is misusing the meds or not. I know there is a drug problem in Saudi especially that it's more commonly known that Pakistanis are the most "blacklisted" nationality in the kingdom who smuggles drugs in Saudi Arabia. The other day my assistant (who is Indian btw haha) told me last time we waited for over 2 hrs because there is plane coming from Pakistan before them and they where accurately checking it because of the drug smuggling problem

I guess the raising drug problem - which by the way is equally worse in Egypt- is due to political suppression in the area, people want to be tranquil, they want their brains to be totally isolated from the painful political and economical chaos their nations going through. Beside that I'll mention in particular why many foreign workers in Saudi abuse or misuse meds that because the high pressure they are facing in this country, especially the unfair work rules and the sponsorship system here in Saudi Arabia, which I need to go deeply into it in a separate blog. Sexual frustration due to the hard customarily laws here which avoids mixing of both sexes is one of the huge factors too. I guess the middle eastern community should fix the roots of the problem which of course they won't cuz the problem is already known, but yet even our governments chose to be isolated and tranquil from the people themselves, leading that both governments and people being separated by a huge gap delusion, but the difference is that one intentionally chose to be, and the other has no choice!

http://edition.cnn.com/2010/WORLD/meast/07/23/middle.east.drugs.amphetamine/index.html#fbid=KZqhpOLda6H&mtag=soc_fb

The National democratic party new slogan

Translation ( not literally): We will screw YOU up
The National democratic party; a new approach to screw you and your family too!



The national Democratic party in Egypt has been the ruling party before I was even born, in the 80's and the 90's 99'9% was always the NATURAL election result in any political stanza, either Presidential elections, parliamentary elections, etc.. . Whoever is part of this party should win and always win. just until the 21st century things changed a "little" in terms of numbers and in terms of new faces in the parliament. Can you imagine a country like Egypt had it's first "real" presidential election only in 2005? Of course it wasn't 99.9% as usual, yet still Mubarak managed to stay for another 5 years. Although all his presidential candidates all got "BAD LUCK"after the elections, as if god was punishing them for just "thinking" of confronting "Al-Mubarak" . The National Democratic party has been active through releasing lame "propaganda's" through different mass media, fliers, etc.. and some cheesy dude made up the one above to make fun of their "MODERN APPROACH" MY ASS!!

CHANGE: A major Pain in the Ass issue

CHANGE has been the most thought up issue I was thinking of, not from a very short time. I tried several times to change, but yet nothing really happens, I strive with my bad habits, quit them for some time, then give up on quitting. I tried to introduce good habits to replace my bad ones, I temporarily change for a bit then SWITCH back to my old misery. I blame others for not changing, sometimes myself. I guess dealing with change is part of my Phlegmatic character of mine, or maybe it has something to do with my zodiac sign "Taurus". Here I go again I'm putting some nonsense to not to change! Well I have to! MY WILL WILL DECIDE!

A diabolical issue in your 20's: marriage

Well I'm not against marriage on the contrary I'm pro marriage with all my heart. But marriage at the right time is what is very important. I grew up in a upper middle class family, with a good reputation and good family ties. My father got married when he was younger than me now, although they where not well off at that time, but the good family background and sort of things helped them out. So imagine I'm older by a year than m father when he got married, I'm quite well off (not much really, but yeah fair enough to start a family) and - for my parents point of view- has nothing missing in my life to start a family. It's just like that! you got the money, you got the car, and the house so do it! I'm totally against that idea, although I'm not completely going to refuse it all the way, but I feel like I already have ambitions, dreams! things to fulfill. besides the most important part is, I haven't met "the one" which willing to share her life with me. So if it is all about arranged marriage then why don't I wait for some other time, the longer I waited, the more better off I will. That in case of arranged marriage. Besides I still have high hopes on "true love" or what so called "soul mate" It's not impossible, but all it needs is patience!

Andy Kaufman - man on the moon-

Could be one of the most interesting characters I ever heard of. His life been a huge theater, doing those weird acts of his, which is either Brilliant to some people or totally "stupid" to others. weather you like him or not -dying at the age of 35- Andy Kaufman left to much "controversies" and created a new type of art which many after him followed!



for more about andy kaufman: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andy_Kaufman

About me..

I might be the weirdest person you could ever meet, or I might be just ordinary to you! I could be the most boring in the entire universe or the most fun and lawful friend you could ever had! I'm very loyal, I don't like trouble. I hate facing trouble, I would just walk away even if I'm right. I'm very spiritual but not very religious, I would like to be one day though! but I'd rather be a true believer and a true religious person rather than faking things up.. I'm just Fady.. that normal person that you could met before in life.. I'm no special.. but I could be really special in a way or another..


P.S. It has been a long time since I posted something here, but I felt like sticking to one blog rather than scattering my writings all over the internet