"Life is not measured by age" some wise man once said that. You could live until you're one hundred and not accomplishing anything in your life or you could die young, still you're remembered. Everyone remembers "James Dean", the 24 year old actor who died at a young age. Marylin Monroe is still idolized although she she died at 36 of age. Jesus changed the face of the earth and left our world when he was 33, still his teaching lives with us till now.
When I think of my past 28 years, I realize I haven't done anything "flashy" or could be considered an "Accomplishment". I'm about to leave my bachelor life soon, still "marriage and love" is not considered an accomplishment to me. I think of my life all the time, still my fruit of my continuous thinking is "Non-existent". I want to live a life; different than what I'm in right now. I dream all the time about a different person I might become yet I am the very same person. I try to change my life spiritually, primarily not for God unfortunately but for the sake of becoming a better and "different" person. I convince myself sometimes that I'm living a "stable life". Stable but not perfect. I'm thankful of what I am of course still I feel most of the time being "out of path". I keep saying to myself I don't want to disrupt my "internal peace" but I know it's not real. My comfort zone is giving me self satisfaction but It's fake. Years are passing by and things not changing. Only my age is changing. Will I do more than thinking about the matter? It's time to leave my comfort zone..
When I think of my past 28 years, I realize I haven't done anything "flashy" or could be considered an "Accomplishment". I'm about to leave my bachelor life soon, still "marriage and love" is not considered an accomplishment to me. I think of my life all the time, still my fruit of my continuous thinking is "Non-existent". I want to live a life; different than what I'm in right now. I dream all the time about a different person I might become yet I am the very same person. I try to change my life spiritually, primarily not for God unfortunately but for the sake of becoming a better and "different" person. I convince myself sometimes that I'm living a "stable life". Stable but not perfect. I'm thankful of what I am of course still I feel most of the time being "out of path". I keep saying to myself I don't want to disrupt my "internal peace" but I know it's not real. My comfort zone is giving me self satisfaction but It's fake. Years are passing by and things not changing. Only my age is changing. Will I do more than thinking about the matter? It's time to leave my comfort zone..
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