#Watched Melancholia

Have you ever thought of describing your depression in an artistic way? Well if you're Lars Von Trier then you did it!! To tell you the truth I had to read about the movie before watching it and thank God I did because if you didn't you would feel so confused and lost. The movie portrays a story of two sisters each in two separate parts. Justine in part I is a bride about to get wed in a beautiful house and party all prepared by her sister and brother in-law but throughout the party she seems unimpressed and sad. She's wandering alone and seems missing things, she misses her womanizer dad who she kept asking him to stay but he didn't, she's stressed from work although she's having a great career and she's uninterested with her marriage and by the time she needed her husband to be along with her he left. Even with all the money spent on the party she's not interested. Depression has taken over her life she's numb ,unimpressed and always feeling alone. her sister is not helping at all and always accusing her for letting herself in such condition. the wedding is over and everyone left, leaving the poor bride in more deep "melancholia" 

Part II focuses more on Claire the elder sister. She's a normal mother, trying to take care of her son and husband, who has to be some sort of scientist specialized in constellations and stars movement. Her sister has gotten more deep into depression so she asked her to live with her. She tried to get her out of her melancholia and by the time she was trying her husband was talking about a possible collision which is unlikely between Earth and a planet which is called "Melancholia" Claire started to worry about this incident and she thought maybe it won't be a normal fly-by. Justine told her it won't be a fly-by and there will be a collision although her husband kept telling her that won't happen. The best thing about this part of the movie and total suspense and the reaction of each sister to the incident. Justine seems calm while Claire is terrified. This off course is reflection to Justine's depression were in freight cases depressed people feel very calm. The movie went slowly visualizing the collision until it was over for our poor planet Earth.. 

The movie is undescribable  but all I can say it's more like describing the director's state of depression. if you took the movie as it is you will feel weird, but bearing in mind what it describes it would mean a lot. It's not just a failed wedding part and an exciting Sci-Fi about two planets colliding, it's more like a state of mind visualized into the movie plot giving it a different angle and view to see. of course Lars Von Trier view.

Melancholia (4/5)  

#watched Fifty shades of tits and penises

I don't know from where to start but it seems the Brits taste in literature started to be funny. If you couldn't believe this film adaptation is based on a cheap novel which accidentally become a bestseller in the UK in no time!! A corny storyboard made up by the writer's sexual fantasies with a normal story of a rich and attractive guy having something for bondage having sex with a virgin student where he don't want to fall in love with because he likes spanking more or more likely he hates commitments on the other hand the no longer virgin loved him but doesn't like rough sex but nice and easy where by the end of the movie she realized his fetish for spanking is more amusing for him than her.. but wait there is a sequel for this shithole and I'm sure the movie industry will keep making money from some superficial stories where Tits is the only attraction in the film.. 

RATING: 1/5 (FIFTY SHADES OF GREY) 

THE DEATH THOUGHT

Death becomes a thought when you grow older. Excuse me if you got me wrong I don't mean to be depressing and all, I do mean you will face death several times as you grow older, you will know people who use to be alive and now they're no more. You will miss people you adored and feel sorry for people. You will start giving condolences to friend's families and even to your families friends. Death is following you everywhere and it won't stop. I always think about it but not in a depressing way, I always say I should. If you won't then you won't feel life. If you want to feel life think of death!! As you grow time flies and there will be no turning back for the things you would like to do, so you should always think of the end point, Death, the end of life. Yes. I once thought if I had cancer I would rather spend the money on my last journey instead of treatment. I'd rather spend the rest of my life living rather than trying to extend it for a few years ending up not dying to the end.. It started to sound depressing I know but you could never focus on death without mentioning a negative thing. I always think of having a legacy, I'd rather have a short life with legacy rather than a long life to death. I just remembered this movie staring Bruce Willis and Goldie Hawn "Death becomes her" It talks about that. Being immortal but without a legacy is worst thing ever. Mr death if you could hear me right now, take a note- let me leave a legacy then take me,,,

27 February 2015

What is your biggest dream? Is it money? Love? Stability? Survival? A house? Kids? Pleasing God ? I'd like to have all of them, but you can't! Life is tough to let you have all of them. If you spend more time for money, you might lose God or your loved ones. If you have kids but no money, you will live in distress. If you chose God only you will ignore the world. Things never come together. You could be lucky in love or money or God. It's tough to maintain all of them at once. It's hard to reach the equilibrium; the end of the equation -what I do seek more for regardless of what I want more- that is HAPPINESS.. We manage to acquire it for short term times but never forever. We work hard for it, we acquire it with money, love, God, property, but for how long it lasts? I could do anything for that feeling: "forever happiness"...

A Friday thought without internet

"Life is not measured by age" some wise man once said that. You could live until you're one hundred and not accomplishing anything in your life or you could die young, still you're remembered. Everyone remembers "James Dean", the 24 year old actor who died at a young age. Marylin Monroe is still idolized although she she died at 36 of age. Jesus changed the face of the earth and left our world when he was 33, still his teaching lives with us till now.

When I think of my past 28 years, I realize I haven't done anything "flashy" or could be considered an "Accomplishment". I'm about to leave my bachelor life soon, still "marriage and love" is not considered an accomplishment to me. I think of my life all the time, still my fruit of my continuous thinking is "Non-existent". I want to live a life; different than what I'm in right now. I dream all the time about a different person I might become yet I am the very same person. I try to change my life spiritually, primarily not for God unfortunately but for the sake of becoming a better and "different" person. I convince myself sometimes that I'm living a "stable life". Stable but not perfect. I'm thankful of what I am of course still I feel most of the time being "out of path". I keep saying to myself I don't want to disrupt my "internal peace" but I know it's not real. My comfort zone is giving me self satisfaction but It's fake. Years are passing by and things not changing. Only my age is changing. Will I do more than thinking about the matter? It's time to leave my comfort zone..   

THE WORLD IS ENDING!

We've seen such cries several times. Many might think the end of the world would be like total destruction and chaos. living beings would end and life will be no longer sustained. A Meteor! a huge earthquake!! even some aliens would abduct human beings and turn them to guinea pigs!!! So many ideas, some are ridiculous, some are theological others are scientific or maybe visions. But in my opinion the world won't end in that fashionable way like dinosaurs or some earthquake will blow the whole earth not even some alien intervention will finish us. We will finish it ourselves!! we're trying to sustain a life here on poor earth, but we're running out of resources, but I'm sure we're not running from ideas. Humans started life and sure we will end it. When earth runs out of humans through war and starvation. When we keep on destroying our atmosphere and in return earth gives us hurricanes and earthquakes, life will be unbearable. When humans become heartless and greedy. When each single life on earth only thinks of his own will being. We became beasts in a more organized world, even beasts have a heart...

حواري مع مرشح رئاسة اخواني

كنت بتفرج كالعادة علي التلفزيون لمتابعة أخر المستجدات في عالمنا و انا كنت بقلب توقفت عند احدي برامج التوك شوز و كان الضيف احدي مرشحي الرئاسة المايل للدولة الدينية الاسلامية و كان كلامة كلة بمعني ان كلام اللة أصدق شئ و ان اوروبا بتحافظ علي هويتها و نحن ايضاً يجب ان نفعل مثلهم الي أخر الكلام المعروف و المتكرر و في لحظة سرحت بمخيلتي كأنني مكان المذيعة و دار بيني و بين نفسي حوار مع هذا المرشح:

انا: تري ان الدولة الاسلامية هي الحل لمشاكل مصر؟

المرشح: بالطبع, الشعب المصري ذكي بطبعة و كل الذي يحتاجة هو كلام اللة المولي عز و جل في حياتة حتي يحل كل مشاكلة.
انا: انت كدة بتقول ان الشعب بعيد علي اللة؟

المرشح: حشي للالة!! انا قولت الشعب زكي!!

انا: طب لو فسرنا كلامك ان الشعب بعيد عن اللة, لية البلد ملاينة جوامع حتي كنائس و مش بس كدة في المناسابات تلقي الساحات و الجوامع ملاينة علي أخرة! يبقي ماذا ستضيف ايدلوجياتك؟

المرشح: هناك بعض الامور ليست كاملة مثل وجود ملاهي ليلية و اماكن سٌكر و محلات بيع الخمور التي ملأت البلد منذ عهد الرئيس المخلوع و هناك ايضاً انفلات في الشارع بسبب التبرج و و الانحطاط بسبب الافلام الخليعة و الاغاني الهابطة. و كل هذا بأذن اللة سينتهي بكتاب اللة.

انا: بس هل مصر كلها كباريهات؟ هل مصر كلها محلات خمور؟ في اي مجتمع هناك السئ و الصالح. و التركيز علي امور سطحية في مجتمعنا دون النظر للأمور و المشاكل الاكبر يعتبر تبرير لعدم حل التحديات الاكبر مثل البطالة و ردائة التعليم و الصحة الخ.. و غير ذلك منع الخمر و الملاهي لن يخفية عن مجتمعنا بل سيكثرة في الخفاء ليس معني ذلك انا مع الحاجات دية بس لنركز علي صنع مواطن صالح تعليمياً و هو بذاتة سيرفض الوقوع في هذة الامور.

المرشح: ازاييي نسيبة؟؟؟ لعن اللة بائعها و شاربها و صانعها!!

انا: مجتمعنا ليس خامورجي عشان نركز علي امور سطحية في مجتمعنا و لا أظن ان في المستقبل سيكون احد منتبة لهذة الامور السطحية بس يجب بناء مواطن صالح و المواطن الصالح هو ادري من اية الصح من الغلط.

المرشح قاطعاً: لنغير الموضوع

انا: لماذا ترفض وجود رئيس او حتي مدير غير مسلم؟

المرشح: بكل صراحة لا اقبل .. لاننا دولة مسلمة و وبما انه في ديموقراطية فلن ينجح لان الاغلبية للمسلمين

انا: فرضاً اذا كان الشعب واعياً

المرشح: حتى ولو كان عادلاً فلن أقبل
الشريعة الإسلامية المصدر الرئيسى للتشريع المصري
لذلك لن نؤيد وباي شكل من الاشكال تواجد اي شخص غير مسلم في منصة الحكم
وما يحدث ألان من ظلم وما شابه من قبل الحاكم ... لا يجعلنا ان نلجأ الى الكافر
حتى يرفع عنا الظلم .. بل اللجؤ الى الله عز وجل
وللأسف معظمنا ألان بعيد كل البعد عن الدين وعن المنهج الصحيح القويم الذي
شرعه الله ودعانا بيه رسولنا الكريم محمد صلى الله عليه وسلم
وهذا هوو سبب

انا: طب ماذا عن الدول الاخري الغير مسلمة, هل ستتعمل معها؟

المرشح: بالطبع العلاقات السياسية و التجارة شئ أخر

انا: بس مش في كلامك تضاد؟ ان تحمل علي ابناء وطنك و تحرمة من شيء و في نفس الوقت تتعامل مع دول أخري غير مسلمة. يعني مثلاً تقبل ان عضو مصر في الامم المتحدة ان يرئسة غير مسلم او ان فريق من الاطباء مصري يرئسة اجانب؟ اذا اردت ان تضع مبدء حتي لو كان غلط صر علية!!

المرشح: هذا شئ و الحاجات التانية دي شئ. دية رائسة دولة!!

انا: بس مصر من مجتمع مدنى و يا اما تقبل ان تكون من هذا المجتمع او تنفصل عنة!!

المرشح (غاضبً) لن اساوم علي ديني و اذا كان هذا الختيار فسأنفصل!!

انا: طب اذا اخترت الانفصال, هل ستقلع بدلتك الايطالية الصنع و ترمي سيارتك اليابانية و او حتي تتخلي عن جهاز منظم ضرابات القلب الامريكي ؟؟ هل ستغلق قناة السويس في وجة الكفار؟ يا سيدي العالم اصبح قرية صغيرة كما يقولون و بلدنا جزء من هذا المجتمع. اذا اردت فرض افكارك يجب ان تكون قوي او علي الاقل غني زي دول الخاليج. و مصر علي مدار 30 عام ضعفت و خُربت فهل سنترك كل الامور الفرعية و نتحدث عن الحجاب و الخمر و الرئيس مسلم و لا لأ فلنبني مصر اولاُ

المرشح (زي العيال) بس مصر بردو اسلامية!!

انا (و في حالة قرف داخلى) يعني انت شايف الشعب داير علي حل شعرة!!


و هنا توقف سراحاني الرهيب و قررت ان اعود الي عالمي هنا علي الكنبة لانضم لحزبي مرة اخري....